I do not like it here. I find it strange that I feel indifferent about having no friends. I just don’t care all that much. I can’t really describe it. I just find it nice to be alone. I’m not really that lonely, because I interact with a lot of people at work and in class. I just don’t have any real friends.
This school is too much. There are too many majors. Too many undergrads. Too many clubs, too many classes, too many emails in my inbox. Too much going on. I get overwhelmed by all the choices. I don’t like the rigidity of the place. Sometimes it feels kinda like high school. It’s a very cookie cutter college experience. And that is not what I want.
I need help figuring this out. I really can’t do it alone. I don’t know where to start. I don’t know where I want to go. I constantly feel like I’m floating around like a leaf in a river.Permalien Classé dans: thoughts